Rantings Of The Deranged

2006-06-25T13:09:00.000+08:00

那你喜欢他吗？

那当然啦！他一开始，心里就只有我一个人！

人家喜欢你，你就要喜欢他吗？有那么容易吗？！

这样有什么不好？

我看不出来这样哪里好！

这样至少比我好！哪像我？整整花了五年的时间，喜欢上一个根本不可能会喜欢我的人！现在你只要管好你自己的事就好，何必管起我的事来呢？有些事跟你一点关系也没有，一点关系也没有！

怎么可能么会一点关系也没有？你喜欢的人是我！不可以喜欢别人！

你总是那么有自信，这算什么嘛？对，对啊！我喜欢的人是你啊！可是我有什么办法！你一点都不喜欢我！

你不要... 你不要喜欢上别人！

2006-06-18T14:16:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, we just say the most reassuring things to others not because we are trying to convince them, but rather if we admit it out loud, we ourselves might actually believe in it enough to come true.

2006-06-18T13:38:00.000+08:00

A home where it doesn't feel like one, versus a place which, by all rights, was never home, yet always felt like one.

2006-06-17T21:50:00.000+08:00

Where was your soul born?[pics + detailed answeres]

Your soul was born in the Shadows.Your soul was born in the shadows of the moon at night. You're all mystery and enigma and your element is the Moon. No one really knows who you are, but they might think they know you. You only tell people fragments of who you are and never show your true personality. That doesn't have to mean that youre being someone you're not though. You're always yourself and you never do something just because someone else does. Some might think you're a little cold or dull, but you're just hiding your true self for some reason. Maybe only a couple of selected people have ever seen the true you. You are loyal to these people and it will take time if anyone else wants to gain your trust. You let people think that they know you and that you trust them. But sooner or later they will realize that they never really knew you. Be careful. Someday you might need someone who knows what you need. Trust people. You prefer silence and tranquillity. You're calm and collected and a nice person most of the time.
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2006-06-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

the concept of rebirth. to give up the past.

2006-06-14T18:53:00.000+08:00

you dont have to know how i do it,
neither do you have to know what i did.
hell, you dont even have to approve of my doings.
you just have to know i did it.

change is not borne of desire but of necessity and happiness is a choice, not an option.

2006-06-06T01:55:00.000+08:00

"i'm not anybody. to you i might be a toy. but to others i mean the world to them and i'll rather keep that thought that i'm important in their eyes and not just any cheap toy."

" yes so what if i got myself fucking drunk that day. so what if i cried like hell because i miss and love you. so what if i'm not happy this days. so what if i love you. so what if i have feelings for you? SO WHAT. because everything doesnt fucking matter anymore."

pearl, you took the exact words outta my mouth. but maybe not the former. because i never truly existed. in anyone's life. im fastened. away from this world of hurt, i say.

2006-05-25T09:45:00.000+08:00

whether it is for the best or for the worse,
i've come to a decision.
to give up both friends and love,
i will no longer live in delusion.

know me like never before,
hate me for who i am.
i will no longer take any falls,
feelings are nothing, if not just a scam.

you laugh at me because i am different. i laugh at you because you are all the same. support the surrealist.

2006-05-21T00:33:00.000+08:00

oh my god. its been fucking long since i blogged.

life's STILL a chore. nothing much has changed about that.

i guess somethings never change, do they?

i cant forget. god, if there's one thing i want to do now, it is to forget.

because the memories are so fuckenly painful.

i cant stop thinking about the way you gave $2 to the maiyatang seller at holland.

i cant stop thinking about the way you say you bring unhappiness.

i cant stop thinking about you.

i cant.

and now, my friendship with benji is on the rocks because im a moronic asshole who is too childish for him. and on any grounds, he is right.

because i am all of what he says i am.

i am childish; i am a moron.

if anyone deserves to die, its me.

2006-05-10T09:24:00.000+08:00

thats because im a fucking cheap toy probably worth -$9.90 at ~~all near departmental stores~~. wait forget it. make that, all near convenience stores.

2006-04-26T08:54:00.000+08:00

so im breaking off contact with practically everyone i know since my secondary school days.

ive deleted my friendster account, locked up my blog, refusing to accept calls from anybody and blocked them off my msn.

im only short of moving to a new country.

shucks. i actually attend the same school as some of them.

luckily different course.

shaun wee, who is in the same course as me, will not be bo liao till spy on me.

why am i doing this, you might ask?

because i've stopped caring. if caring for someone can bring me such endless pain, i rather dun care at all.

call me selfish.

2006-04-24T16:22:00.000+08:00

it was a boring day to kick off the semester with I&E community. the teacher was so boring and it didnt help at all that the module is so dry. i honestly hace a hard time deciding which is worse, the module or the teacher.

there were 7 mcm-ers in the class: me, jaz, fel, jarryl, lucas, joel and huiqi.

joel is in t208, my new class! he is pretty cool and can tell that he is a nice guy.

lucas... resembles someone i know. its not really the facial features but rather, the way he talks and carries himself. ok, fine. the both of them kinda look alike too.

spent the 4hrs in sch doing nth, though it felt good to be in school.

lunched with some peeps from t105 last sem and headed to town with jaz.

seemed like i've town'ed for the past few days in succession except for yest.

gotta get a life!! argh! =P

oh, and i got caught for wearing slippers. wah lao! i wear for one year alr now then catch me! wtf! on first day of yr 2 somemore! u think i freakingly give a shit abt u and ur stupid school rules, huh, warrant officer?!

2006-04-23T12:55:00.000+08:00

tired and bored. feel like going bras basah to check if any books are on sale but the weather's not approving of my decision.

was struck with a thought yesterday whilst walking along in the zoo. i seemed to be in such a rush when i actually had all the time in the world. i guess society's shaped me to have a sense of urgency though there's nothing really pressing for me to attend to. i guess many of us just unwittingly fell into a factory producing people with the same quality of mindset that comes in varying shapes and sizes.

also, what is happiness? happiness is similar the concept of light to me. in the presence of light, darkness is driven away. but there's always a shadow cast somewhere that we are very affected by. happiness is a choice, not an option. we can choose to ignore the darkness, only to have it loom larger and larger till it consumes us entirely. but if we try and figure out exactly what it is and get in there to solve the problem, something good might actually come out of it.

seemed to be living on borrowed energy recently. didnt sleep much at gladys' place and headed straight to sentosa the next day. went home late and woke up early the next day to go zoo. i wonder how long can i borrow the energy and where did it come from?

我认输。心甘情愿的认输了。

2006-04-23T02:10:00.000+08:00

Review on GIRAFFE

Food Standard: 3.5/5
Food Portion: 3/5
Ambience: 5/5
Service: 4/5
Waiting Time: 3/5
Variety of Food: 2.5/5
Variety of Drinks: 4/5

Concluding Statement: Would go again once the opportunity arises. Chicken Tandoori is recommended. Targeted at higher income range. Very relaxing place. Friendly staff. Urban architecure with a loft feel.

2006-04-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

i fulfilled my promise and went to the singapore zoological gardens before school started! (:

PRELUDE:

me: mummy! can you wake up me up at 8 tomorrow? im going to the zoo.
her: ok. who are you going with?
me: (i wanted to say,"i'm going with someone who is really really hard to talk to, get a reply out of or be seen and if i actually started talking, people might actually think that im crazy coz my friend's kinda invisible" but instead, i just settled for...) nobody.
her: go alone? you crazy ah? fun meh?
me: ok what. nvm de lah.
her: how much is the admission fee?
me: $15
her: you too much money isit?
me: ok lorrrr. if i dont go zoo tomorrow, then i use the money and go clubbing with my friends at night lorrrr.
her: fine.

*now, this is what i call the lesser of two evils...*

the next day, the alarm clock rang at 8 but i turned it off and lazed back to lalaland, thinking that the zoo wont run away, so its pretty much ok to sleep in later. finally dragged my tired feet to the bathroom and started preparing. took mrt to cck before taking 927. reached there by 10! (:

disclaimer: i lost the freaking map lahh! and hence, i forgot some of the animals' name! optical zoom 3x at its best! (: FREEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAKKKKIIIINNNNNGGGGGGGG LONG POST WITH MANY MANY PICS!!

the main entrance

was greeted by macaws! it cost $5 to take a picture with them! tourist trap please!

the golden pheasant. for those who watched 大长今，this animal might be familiar to you because this is the animal that she got send to the herb garden for. i CANNOT believe people eat this.

the greater mousedeer. its still quite minute and rather obvious how it got its name.

the siamang. wahh. this animal damn noisy can? all i can hear throughout the treetops trail is its horrendous screaming. and so difficult to get a good shot lahh. keep swing through the trees! zZz!

the white handed gibbon. he dun wan look at me can?!

the lazy maned wolf. apparently, i could only find one. (notice how the size of the pics have changed! i got fed up of blogger and used back photobucket!!)

the sun bear.

the nilghai. cool name lahh.

the camels and a gazelle lookalike animal?!

closer look at the gazelle lookalike animal

these two also should be gazelle de family bahh??

and this animal hor... i dunno what sia! forgot the name le!

inuka and sheba... mother and dunno son or daughter lehh! but inuka means silent stalker in eskimo language!

man's predecessors... the orang utan, i think. zZz!!! =P

these birds are the freest animals there lahh. can get to go anywhere they like.

the rhinos look quite clean this time ard. they are the only animals i remembered since i last went there 4 yrs ago.

jaguar/cheetah?! the way to differentiate them is by their spots.

relatives of zebra??

woohoo!! feeding time for the zebras!! look at that ass!!

the giraffes are in really really close contact. no zoom hor!

simba and his concubines!! wahh. if i were to be an animal, i would want to be a lion, just sit in the sun and the lionesses will go and hunt for food. and i get to eat first!

this cat damn dao de!! look like giant household cat!

THE FRAGILE FOREST <-- DAMN NICE CAN?!

CHILDREN'S FUNWORLD! (OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT!)

SOME REPTILIAN PARK

WHERE THE DAMN COLD ANIMALS ARE...

THE MOST FASCINATING EXHIBIT!!

OTHER MISCELLANEOUS ANIMALS (:

pygmy hippo!

the monkey is like peeing can?!

these animals are smelly!

according to animal planet, they can defeat off alligators.

damn er lahh.. =P

exploitation!!

PRIMATES!! (EWWW...)

AUSTRALIAN OUTBACK

the most poisonous land snake found in australia.

funny-legged bird.

wallaby (1).

wallaby (2).

WOOHOO! fun day at the zoo!! i wouldnt mind going again! (: (: (: (: (: spent 3 hrs and 45 minutes there!!!

finally done blogging at 04:06!! crazy crazy shit!!

people spend their lifetime searching for something which is already there, right from the very start.

2006-04-20T21:09:00.000+08:00

stayed at gladys' place with yangcheng last night. (PASIR RIS!!!) school is starting in a few days' time and we took this oppurtunity to catch up. i know im gonna miss having them in the same class as me. went gaga over strawberry icecream and ended up with a weird tummy problem, guess im really pretty much a sherbet person instead.

watched a few vcds in the midst of talking last night and some choirboys thingy gladys keep forcing us to watch since effervescence days isnt that remotely boring afterall. didnt watch the 2nd part though. also watched the first episode of 我是金三顺, not bad, quite funny.

was supposed to meet up with yuanching for breakfast at her school but she had to cancel coz of some proposal. kinda screw up my events lined up can? :P i was thinking i could go have breakfsat with her at nyp before heading over to sentosa. but the weather looks promising, hope that it doesnt rain today! (:

我觉得自己真得很差劲。你是我最重视的朋友但我却让你陷入堕落。很想做你最信任的人！不知我还有资格吗？

because we are so different, but yet it feels so right. to me, at least.

Food for thought...

Before you say "I can't", make sure you've already tried.
Before you let doubts stop you, confront them with facts.
Before reasons convince you it's impossible, pursue the one reason that makes it possible.
Before failure enters your mind, hide success in your heart.
Before fear holds you back, go forth in faith.
Before problems interfere with your plans, use them to accomplish your goals.
Before you hold back because you think others are better, show them what a winner you are.
Before you settle for less, hold on to what is important.
Before you believe there is no way, keep going and you'll make one.
Before you give up, be at peace inside.
Before you dismiss your dreams, wait until they've come true.
Before you go looking for happiness, make your own where you are.

2006-04-20T18:25:00.000+08:00

this marks the 200th entry of the blog and the last day of my work as a facilitator.

i can tell that i am going to miss this job, with all the wonderful kids (some are seriously annoying though) and the many many things that i learnt. the trick to doing a good job, no matter what you do, is to treat each day like your last one. for some bizzare reason, i felt motivated and honestly appreciate the fact that the kids did enjoy themselves.

so acs primary, sorry for the lack of pictures. didnt manage to bring my camera out because i didnt want to bring a bag and i have 10 minutes left of battery life. acs primary is one of the six schools under the acs family. others include acs (junior), acs (barker road), acs (independent), acjc and acs (international). and you have to admit, people tend to stereotype when it comes to the anglo chinese family. when olevel leavers from sec sch (not from acs(i), acs(br), mgs, plmgs) choose acjc, they generally have an impression that the school is full of rich kids, which is not a total foregone conclusion because it is filled with rich kids. ok, maybe not filled, but rather, has a higher national average of people with EXTRA cash to spare.

i have to admit today's kids are bright. they are equipped with an inquisitive mind and a motor mouth to match. no singlish heard at all today; the only person who actually said "lah", "lor" and the such, was me. yes, embarassing though it was, i couldnt resist saying that to see if they had any reaction. alright. fine. i just cannot stop saying "lah" and "lor" because of a obsessive compulsive disorder.

so stereotype number one - damn good english : proven.

moving on, i used to think that acs boys are brats with no empathy for the poor. i wouldnt say i still think it now because there are actually really really nice people from there too. in fact, today's bunch of kids have been unfailingly polite, calling the ladies "madam" and me "uncle", all in the good name of fun. and there was this guy, melvin, i suppose. he said i was the "best guy in the world... no, the universe!" its damn sweet, i tell you. acs boys are rich and it is blatantly obvious. today's lunch brought was a cornucopia of food and extra cash. they have the tendency to want to buy stuff, as if having the money around them would actually endanger their lives, but this is in no way their fault. they do have the extra oolah to burn and perhaps at a young age, the concept of the importance of money hasnt been really drilled into them (which is no surprise. who would tell their kids "son, money is damn important, but it is ok, really. we have so much we can drown your facilitator in cold hard cash). and the topics they talk about. their holidays could be spent on motorboats trips and the such. seriously, these are privileged, with a capital p, kids. and they are not proud, at least i didnt notice any instances for today. they say things the way it is. perhaps it is the pseudo english accent and their topics that might come across to others as snotty and arrogant. melvin also asked me today, "isit the more of us circle the "strongly agree" the higher your pay is?". damn adorable.

stereotype number two - rich brats : 9/10 untrue.

so this automatically explodes beliefs that i have against the family. but what is it with them and calling their peers by their full names? they do not go, like "brandon!". it's always "brandon CHEW!" with the last name and all. im surprised mono syllabic chinese names havent been yelled out yet. waitaminit. chinese is monosyllabic so basically nth funny abt the previous sentence. zZz. but boys will be boys. extremely true sentence that strikes a chord in me today. still the childish quarrels and how listening can be a failing in boys aged 9 to 80.

but whatever. it was the last day and i had a blast of a time. many thanks to acs (primary) c6 to c10 for making my day. (:

2006-04-20T00:09:00.000+08:00

CITY LIFE - A Photo Collection.

i feel weirdly relieved.

2006-04-19T12:35:00.000+08:00

Cascada- Everytime We Touch

i heart this song! and i think she's hot! say YAY, if you agree with me! WOOHOOT! get a load of that mtv crap which is set in a stuffy old english library and see how those librarians dance to the tune! (:

2006-04-19T11:26:00.000+08:00

i guess this is what everything is about.

and its not pity. none at all.

you once said that all you bring is unhappines to people around you. guess what? nothing's hurt more than this.

2006-04-18T23:39:00.000+08:00

listening to: Swan Lake - Tchaikovsky

weird choice of music there, i know. gabriel adamantly insist that i listen to his music. gotta admit it aint half as bad as matthew made it out to be. fine, it is a bit boring but its ok lahhh. (: matthew's words cant really be trusted since he has a screw loose somewhere. i mean, he shouted my name out in the middle of ps, all three syllables with a voice to match. but he is still my beloved cousin. and HELLO GABRIEL! (if you are reading this)

so i had dinner with zhiwei just now at alexandra village. she is scared of dogs and cats can? the bak kut teh was not bad but seriously, i am happy that at least she is there to accompany me. had a damn long chat with her, haha. damn hard not to lah, nowadays.

last day of work this thurs. im entertaining the thought of kidnapping one of the kids since acs is reputed to be a rich school. but since jocelyn implanted the notion that there might be personal bodyguards following along the trip, i think i shall just dispel the notion. ):

shall take lotsa pics!

2006-04-18T00:33:00.000+08:00

It's only through writing a resume that i realised how wonderfully brilliant i am. mwahaha.

so its now down to passport sized photo and essay of less than 500 words on the local media scene. should not be too much of a problem. (:

awww. don't hate me. *winks*

2006-04-17T23:36:00.000+08:00

i cannot believe i am actually disappointed school did not start this week.

yes, i actually am.

because i know what school entails.

no, it ain't fun but it gets my mind off stuff. not that i can truly get over it.

im going to say hello to the influx of ridiculously heavy and tedious workload. not surprisingly, seriously, because i am going to take some web design thingy next sem and honestly? design is not my cup of tea. so there. =P

but i will not lose the teensy weensy grip that i am stubbornly refusing to let go. no, no matter what anyone says. you are you and it's all that i care.

i have to get ready for school to start though. i need to buy stationery and the likes so that it actually feels like school is starting. i guess you can call it those mundane rituals humans go through. not much real meaning in there but traditions are pretty much there to be preserved.

i still have one more day of work today and tomorrow's the briefing. acs junior at botanic gardens on thurs. and i swear, the pay's taking its "sugar honey ice tea" time to be credited. i hate this. i hate feeling so broke. i hate that you sleep late. i hate that you are not really taking care of yourself. i hate that you think too much. i hate that i think too much and draws assumptions like a crazy kid who first found crayons. i hate that i cant ask you now to respond to the outing on sat. i hate that you seemed happy in the pics i saw on your school web because it makes me doubtful. (geesh. i am awfully stalkerish but if someone hadnt told me about it, i wouldnt even have known.) i hate this insecure feeling. argh.

woah. mad rush of emotions there but yeah. pouring out what i felt throughtout the past, say, 3 days? school starts in approximately 1 week's time. woohoo~!

2006-04-16T20:57:00.000+08:00

Stupidity is a glorified term for actions done that have negative consequences and it is only through the lens of hindsight that one can call his actions stupid. These actions are normally felt justified at the exact point of time where one has to rise to the occasion.

2006-04-16T13:06:00.000+08:00

"It can't be any harder than this... I mean, If I had known the last time I saw you would be the last time, I... I would have stopped to memorize your face, the way you move, everything about you. If I had known the last time I kissed you would have been the last time... I never would have stopped." - Paul Rudd "Mike Hennigan" (Friends Episode 917 - The One With The Memorial Service)

2006-04-16T10:38:00.000+08:00

开始返回中二年代的时候了

又是为了你，开始费寝忘食了。

为什么总是你？

若我真的拥有答案的话，或许现在的我就根本不会那么痛苦了。

渐渐的，慢慢的，越陷越深了。

我真的想破除目前的困境吗？

其实，我一点也不想，因为至少现在还有你的回应。

你总是给我单字的回复，和你维持一个话题是很辛苦的。

it is not about asking questions; it is about asking the correct questions.

好想问你，你真的不快乐吗？

其实我问了。你已经否认了这一点。

可是，会时常听到你的消息，听说你的课外活动的朋友和你一起庆祝了生日。

我不想向你提出这一点，我怕你会认为我在怀疑你。现在的关系已是那么不踏实了，我真得很怕会让我毁了一切。

看了看在你的学校的网站，发现了你在里面的笑容是那么灿烂的。

好久好久没看到这样的你了。

我真得很怀念。我不要求什么，就是请求你的一个微笑。

这样，至少会给我毅力支持下去。

for you, i have already done so many stupid things. what is one more added to the list?

2006-04-15T13:19:00.000+08:00

APPLE INTEGRATED PROJECT
GRAPHIC COMMUNICATION
ADVERTISING CAMPAIGN

halfpage newspaper ad

logotype

double decker bus ad
digital mockup of phone

poster

brochure

Done By Effervescence Inc.

Semester 1.2 (Oct.)

2006-04-15T10:04:00.000+08:00

i think i have lagging problems. i felt oddly happy yesterday, abit of happy-go-lucky but...

i woke up today, feeling the endless pain in my heart.

i deeply truly feel i am imposing.

perhaps, the one has never been me before.

if someone else were to be there, things would have been very very much different.

it's just me.

all the body language, how can i miss it?

now then i realised, if i could forget, it would have been a year ago.

don't talk to me, im dead.

2006-04-15T00:07:00.000+08:00

tagboard code met with some probs! haiz. had tried flooble and cbox but nothing seems to work. so disappointed sia. i think my template code got prob that prevented the tagboard from working. sians. ): better find that out soon. i miss people tagging in my tagboard. ): ): ):

2006-04-14T04:05:00.000+08:00

at the beginning of this semester break, i have promised myself that i will at least make a trip to the zoo.

in fact, ive been talking about going for damn damn long already lah.

i have decided to go on monday.

mwahaha!

i shall wake up at 7 because the zoo opens at 830 and closes at 6!

2006-04-12T22:51:00.000+08:00

LIFE IN THE FAST LANE. - A Photo Collection.

2006-04-11T19:55:00.000+08:00

been crashing houses for the past few days.

yesterday it was bernard's and today, we went to elaine's place.

been watching cable. watched home and health (or isit the other way ard?) of cosmetic surgery. i think its getting more and more common. the risks are also considerably lower as compared before. not to mention, the price is less steep and getting relatively affordable.

i found this mv of 祝我生日快乐. i can only say its a kissing fiesta between 温岚 and 贺军翔.

2006-04-10T02:09:00.000+08:00

woohoo! i found rainie yang's blog! (:

2006-04-09T23:03:00.000+08:00

chanced upon mdm haseena yesterday at pop @ central when i picked up a couple books. (in case, people are wondering, pop @ central is the funky and chic name of the popular branch at bras basah)

she was bringing her son. if my memory didnt fail me, her son will turn 4 this year. time flies eh?

i remembered her literature lessons in sec 1 and english lessons in sec 2. they were, really, enriching. i honestly think that i learnt more in 1 year of her class than the entire 2 years of upper secondary.

i didnt feel THAT awkward in front of her as compared to other times when i meet people from my past.

one part of the conversation shook me.

her: so, mass comm eh? good lah. since you always talk so much.
me: no lahh. i have mellowed throughout the years.
her: haha. i wouldnt know. afterall it has been years since i last met you.
me: *awkward laughter*

i guess i cant really say i mellowed or not. but i guess i have matured. haha. i can always hope cant i?

damn no life today.

was reading and watching tv the whole day till cannot take it and went to sleep at 6.

woke at 10. wondering how the hell am i gonna sleep tonight. later got guessx3. can see the cute cute rainie yang! haha. watched her interview today at kang xi lai le on youtube. she damn cute can?? mwahaha. but she looked fatter and older since her meteor garden days as "xiaoyou".

my new timetable sucks lah.

got two days end at 6 lor! wth. i rather they give me 8 am classes and no breaks! zzz!

sucks right! omg lor! zzz!

2006-04-07T10:38:00.000+08:00

listening to: 记得 - 张惠美

the band is playing downstairs.

oddly-shaped fluorescent lamps. white plastic paper tablecloth. mobile toilet. straw mats with green tinged edges. paper dolls. the altar. lastly, the coffin.

i guess today is 出殡 day for the one deceased downstairs. maybe it's just me, i dunno, but i seemed to realise that death is occurring every day, every moment.

the previous post doesnt seem to do my late granduncle some credit. too short, too brief. i barely scratched the surface of the hidden emotions beneath it all.

i guess everyone doesnt want to face death, if given a choice, because of the ambiguity it represents. no one has any proof what happens after someone passed on. i was brought up in a taoist family. so from young, the value that people will go to hell after they die was instilled into me, especially because my paternal grandfather used to make paper offerings. 灯料， in chinese. more commonly, we refer to it to hokkien.

so back to the concept on hell, its known that there are 18 levels, according to tradition. of every level, there was endless suffering. people get boiled, flogged and the such. so i always thought that death = endless suffering and pain. i guess my grandfather pretty much thought the same way since he was afraid of death. but no matter who, death is something everyone has to go through. i guess life is fair in this way.

but as i grow older, many beliefs rushed at me. for those familiar with the greek mythology, life afterdeath (this expression is really ironical) is nothing but one long never-ending party. thats exactly what happened to persephone, the bride of hades who is the ruler of the underworld. she was kidnapped by hades (of which hell later became known as hades) and her bereaved mother went in search of zeus and he decreed that as long as no morsel of food passed her mouth, she is free to go. the food in hades is known to be poisoned; anyone who ingests it will sink into an abyss of darkness, losing every sense of reality. in short, they will be nothing but a zombie. persephone ate 6 seeds of the pomegranate and was hence, doomed to spend half of eternity in hell because 1 seed = 1 month.

argh! got sidetracked. so anyway, because we live in a multi religious society, there have been many many concepts on what happens after one dies. no one can truly say that their concept is much more superior.

2006-04-07T01:24:00.000+08:00

just to recount an incident that happened today.

prelude: i was doing a follow up activity on the p1 airport trail of marymount convent school when i saw this girl circle the word "angry". hence, being the kaypo that i am, i did an unspeakable thing at that point of time. now thinking back, i dont even fathom why i did that but i ACTUALLY asked her why did she circle "angry".

me: so.. why did you circle that you are angry?
her: because i never spend any money today. my mum will scold me.
me: but still, its good to save money. its a virtue (say this word to any convent pri sch girl and they will listen)
her: my daddy will also scold me.

i am left SPEECHLESS.

2006-04-06T20:33:00.000+08:00

i seemed to be over indulging myself lately.

jacob's creek. too 烈 for me already. i prefer bacardi.

fountain lamp. just got it today. damn nice can?!

haha. for the first item, purchased it whilst at bm ntuc.

for the latter, i wanted to get a fountain lamp for very very long. i think it was in sec sch when we had to go ikea to get some furniture with layhui. i saw this lamp and was so mesmerised by it. when i went back to buy it, it was no longer in stock! finally finally found it today. it was the last set of blue or i had to get a red one. i was so desperate i got the display set lahh!

haha. back to watching FRIENDS!

2006-04-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

as people know, i am not easily impressed. but today, i was driven home in a red jaguar with the car plate number SDR 8480.

the car belongs to my grandfather's sister's son.

he is an overseas graduate from america. a member of raffles town club and an ex-rafflesian.

too bad, he is rather senior. maybe 30 to 40 years of age, i dunno. maybe more.

but i think he's charming though. a perfect gentleman.

i dont think he is married. got no ring on his finger.

OF LIFE AND DEATH PART 2.

so anyway. for the past few days, i've been busying with death issues. on saturday, i went to visit my granduncle who passed away and the following day, i went to choa chu kang to 扫墓. today, i went to my granduncle's wake again.

i always thought that funerals and wakes (is there actually a difference?) are solemn affairs but to my experience, many actually go there for a gathering (MAHJONG!) and not alot really seemed sad. i dunno leh. i always feel damn sad at funerals. especially seeing the photograph.

he had always doted on me whenever i visited his old place at tuas. the rambutans there are fantabulous and i loved plucking them.

come to think of it, im doted on by many members of the extended family. mwahaha.

boring post for a boring life. urgh. maybe its just the many many msn windows distracting me. urgh.

i think my hiatus is longer than expected. i got 恶魔在身边恶作剧之吻 to watch! woohoo!

2006-04-03T10:44:00.000+08:00

gonna take a short hiatus, not long, just a couple of days from blogging to complete...

FRIENDS SEASON 5 6 8 AND 9.

[thanks to the praised denise tan si min (: (: (: ]

so anyone with season 7, i would love it if you could lend it to me!

2006-04-01T11:53:00.000+08:00

Of Life And Death Part I.

Went for Bernard's birthday bbq yesterday, only it wasnt so much of an outdoor bbq but an indoor one because of the impending rain.

yes. this is how the sky looked like when i left my house.

so anyway, when i reached there, people has already more or less arrived with bernard's poly friends cooking the food.

sadly, they had to leave shortly and noobs like me and timothy had no alternatives but to chip in to help cook the food. by the term "noob", i refer specifically to me and my world in which water could be burnt and breads are actually plucked off trees.

timothy trying to analyse why the chicken cutlet refuse to cook while far and xenia wondered if the food will taste any good. =P

but fortunately for us, the chicken finally showed some semblance of edibility (?) when we sprinkled a bit of cooking salt on it. it was poor judgment, really. because we based it on how the fire actually sounded like and not really caring what the chicken looked like.

yes! the chicken finally cooked!

so we tasted the chicken and this is what farhanah and i gathered... (sorry for the horrible visual effect)

the chicken tasted bland, we put it down to the marination fault!

not long after, people in the house was chased out and they joined us all outside.

patricia is in town for a year to study in mdis before going back to australia to finish her degree. clarification: i'm really not interested in timothy!

the craze of tongues caught on and not before long (in fact, in the very next shot...)

the tall guy is the bdae boy and the gurl beside him is christina, his girlfriend. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERNARD! (:

stupid stupid bernard. o.O

the actual barbequing was done by patricia (thanks mucho!) whilst far is actually bo liao till she started recording lightning scenes. its mightily impressive though you kinda had to be there to really appreciate it. check out the audio, see if you can decipher the voices. the part near the end is cool.

then, she had to leave. xenia is like such a tagalong lahh. so is timothy, pretty much. they left! zzzzz. but not before more pics were taken!

xenia and far trying to act lesbian to satisfy the guys who were disgruntled they had to leave so early, ie. tim and me. (for your viewing pleasure only. seriously. lol!)

far and me trying to act emo. not tryin sucessfully as i can see.

haha. she looks damn fierce lah, dun mess with her!

bdae boy and xenia. ew. notice the prominent height difference.

i dunno what ber is trying to do, seriously.

we are trying to do those secondary school photo shots. this is the informal one.

tadah! the formal one!

sent them to the busstop before heading back to ber's place. sheena, yunshan and zhiwei arrived, shortly after.

took many pics but they are in my cell as my cam batt was already running low.

we cut the cake at around 10, but not before crapping and jousting around.

bdae boy and the cake. brandon (ber younger bro) has grown up! and i pretty much still think that he look like his uncle while ber and his elder bro looks like his dad. JKJK!

the family photo. dad and elder bro MIA.

she is the legendary nancy who insists upon emphasizing that im fat, everytime she sees me, without fail, much as i hope.

the cake was good! i takeaway!

helped bernard with the clearing and everything before heading home. cheer up and HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN! (: thanks for inviting me! i had a great time except that there was some mention of someone... but i realise something too, so yah. blessing in disguise?

*as promised, the pictures can be downloaded at http://s63.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=2MFKFDIOF1PXS330U1FQA5ONC6

sorry if some of the images have been resized till damn ugly. other photogs for the day include patricia and jeremy how.

tata! have fun! (: (: (:

2006-04-01T00:43:00.000+08:00

back from ber's bdae.

damn damn tired.

will be uploading the photos to yousendit.com and be providing you with the link to download the pics.

check in with me by noon tml.

of life and death? i need someone to bitch slap me silly.

i realised i cannot let go because i dont want to.

2006-03-31T17:13:00.000+08:00

i swear, changkat primary 4A has the cutest and brightest kids ever.

they listen and dont talk back.

they remoralised(?) me!!

alcalvi leong? lol.

bernard's borthday celebration later. will be back with pics, pics and pics!!

covering the event as the official photographer!! HAHAHA... (:

HAPPY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY HUIMIN AND BERNARD!

2006-03-30T01:20:00.000+08:00

so on a happier note...

(i'm blogging because youtube.com is playing a bastard which results in damn slow buffer rate.)

i learnt thai today!

thai is actually like hokkien, or at least sound like.

its quite vulgar too.

for example, "same same" is "qian4 gan3" in thai.

if we apply direct translation in both chinese and hokkien,

"qian4" in chinese means "owe"

"gan3" in hokkien means "fuck"

hence, "owe fuck" is derivative from both words.

damn cool lah, imagine your friend was telling you about this particular incident which you have met or whatsoever and you go "qian gan lah!"

MWAHAHA.

it shall be my new phrase for now~~!!

i learnt alot of science today, going for botanic gardens trail again on friday. wish me luck and i will blog about a science lesson friday!! (: (:

2006-03-30T00:24:00.000+08:00

never though i'd say this but... this is the first time i feel like throwing kids into the symphony lake of botanic gardens.

geylang methodist primary school primary 4 kindness has marred my ambition to be a teacher ever.

let me quote you an example from karen's experience from today:

prelude: boy littered.
karen: so are you going to pick it up and throw it away?
boy: no.
karen: you better pick it up or i'll tell mr wong.
boy: tell lor, i also dun care, you #%&$^ b**** (if whatever had a facial expression, it'd be currently lounging on his face)

ok, fine. i added the "#%&$^ b****" to express how dire the situation was.

and when i finished the trail, "i bitched so loudly [to my colleagues] coz i was damn angry" (Ng, 2006)

knn. wtf!

References

Ng, K. (2006). "Thursday, March 23, 2006" Retrieved 30 March 2006, from http://www.ki-me.blogspot.com

2006-03-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

im the proud owner of ....

so this means, im truly officially broke.

and surviving the past few days without a phone has been a major inconvenience.

and i have reached a theory why we are always late to meet friends!

because we have handphones.

think about it. if we dont have, we will rush down in order not to miss the 'friend'.

see! this is one con of technology!

2006-03-28T13:56:00.000+08:00

"You can keep saying it and it won't stop being true." - Jessica Hecht "Susan Bunch" (Friends Episode 202)

"Oh, I'm sorry, did my back hurt your knife?" - Jennifer Aniston "Rachel Green" (Friends Episode 202)

"From you? Nobody can steal me from you! Just because I'm friends with her doesn't make me any less friends with you!" - Courteney Cox "Monica Gellar" (Friends Episode 202)

2006-03-26T02:37:00.000+08:00

so i realised the "co." referred to kokjing, ranier and seweng aka alex.

the gathering was fun, fun and more fun!

i have to admit that it was rather awkward at the beginning coz it had been 4 years since i last saw ranier and he has changed so much!!! i think he ranks 3rd of the award who has changed the most since primary school days? along side with baocheng and felicia. =P

headed to the new cathay to watch "failure to launch"

i couldnt resist =P

ok lah the show, aint that great but rather funny though.

chatted more as the people begin to warm up.

had dinner at yoshinoya @ ps before heading down to tcc @ paradiz centre.

we sat at yoshinoya till it closed? all topics were covered; from hdb in singapore (underground living. lol.) to errmmm.... guys' talk? so maybe it wasnt such a bad idea no girls went.

i lurve tcc!!! we chatted till 1 plus? and i got home ard 2.

crap and serious talk. i never knew we still had oh so much to talk about.

i ordered toasted hazelnut latte! still prefer the honey one though!

kok jing is still as vain as ever lahh and ranier seemed out of it as he woke up at 6 for his cca but he still contributed to the conversation!

i present to you alex tan who doesnt want a degree :/

latte and icelemontea.

wenbiao ahh... really got the damn serious look lah when he starts to talk about economics! he mature alot le!! but luckily he still got childish de side!! Lo.OL

anyway, some random pictures to share... the design is damn good!!

PLANNING A CHALET @ SENTOSA ON 1ST APRIL AND 2ND APRIL FOR EX-NTPS PEEPS... INTERESTED PARTIES, PLEASE CONTACT ME VIA THE TAGBOARD OR SMS!!! (:

and finally... (: (: (:

2006-03-25T16:23:00.000+08:00

im a deep person ok?

if theres one thing i hate, its people saying that i am superficial

i found a few chim phrases that i came up with.

如果一件事情从未被人记得，那将该怎么忘记呢？

世间的人花了大半辈子寻找着一些或许根本未曾存在过的事物。可是，一旦寻找到了如此希得的物体后，他们便会再去寻找更难获得，更珍贵的，而不安于现状。这么不易满足的贪念，只会让生命变得乏味，无趣。不断地寻找，会渐渐让一切失去意义。到了那个时候，人们就永远不知足，永远都不会快乐。

see!

2006-03-25T16:03:00.000+08:00

i was awakened by alvin's call today.

turns out he is barely awake himself.

chatted for an hour tops with him before logging online.

chatted with alex (?) whilst downloading songs.

i love how some people are so wonderfully considerate by posting what songs they are listening to on their blog.

because that way, people like me can go download them! (:

got about 29 songs that way. yayy!

meeting wenbiao and co. later. i do not know who "co." is but i sure am glad that ranier is going to be there.

though we are in the same school now, i hadnt had the chance to meet him.

watching a movie later. *looks despairingly at wallet*

HAIZ.

2006-03-25T02:16:00.000+08:00

vote on the bottom right corner. dammit.

i found something!! woohoo~! (:

moment of euphoria over. back to reading. (:

2006-03-25T00:50:00.000+08:00

heyy people.

due to an unfortunate incident (ie. my mum's phone spoilt), i get to buy another phone and give her mine.

so im really torn between the two. help me decide by voting?? please?! by sunday i need the result k? (: thanks mucho.

*****

ok, so anyway today right, i went on a mobile phone hunt.

i was at the bus stop downstairs waiting for 61 to go chinatown.

an elderly old man approached me and we started talking, i realised my hokkien kinda sucked and i spent half the time of the conversation trying to gesticulate my meaning out. ):

he is a super nice man. on the bus, i kept thinking about my paternal grandfather to a certain point where tears actually threaten to fall. i guess no one can truly get over the death of a loved one, even after a year. all we can do is move along with the tidings of time, hoping the gaping open wound would somehow close one day.

so anyway, we reached our destination and this kindly old gentleman actually asked me to join him for a cup of coffee. i declined, claiming in a rush. i really hope to have coffee with him if i have the chance to lah. but since he stays around me, bumping into him will not be such a chore? hopefully not.

i didnt treat my grandfather with as much love as i wanted to and now, you can say that im atoning for what i did, or rather did not do, by treating someone else's grandfather better. i guess i always had a problem with expressing how i truly feel, i mean being who i am and all that...

so anyway, an arbitrary thought struck me today whilst on the bus. we often see into others' unseeing eyes and that is frequently all we see. ever wondered how he/she spent the day? or what did he/she spent the past 10 years thinking about? whats the family like? hows the childhood?

i want to touch lives, more so now when i understand the feeling of loss. but chances are, society has shaped its residents into wary and weary people, ever guarded with a self erected wall (that sounded wrong. lol.). distrust and hatred fill the air that we breathe in and if you take in a deep breath, you can even smell the rank of betrayal and suspicions ubiquitous in the atmosphere.

so anyway. i urge those who want to touch lives, to go ahead. for there is no greater good. (:

2006-03-23T13:25:00.000+08:00

horrible day? tell me about it.

due to miscommunication and forgetfulness on my part, i though that there werent any trail today.

esther had to call and wake me up!! =P

kim, lance, janice and karen didnt go.

the punggol primary school kids are horrible.

dont listen at all! argh!

2006-03-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

let me introduce the people in my life.

im not really in a writing mode so i will just make the intro brief and interactive.

yah. thats shiyuen. i didnt know her then!!

CUTE RIGHT! EAT UR HEARTS OUT PEEPS! (:

2006-03-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

currently listening to: 你那么爱她- 李圣杰 & 林隆璇

the few of us decided to have a potluck.

at first, it was kewei, timothy, shengbao and me. but shengbao fell sick (get well soon!). shiyuen and thuhan came to join us.

... and potluck became movie marathon.

watched crash. very very controversial. at first the movie was damn boring with damn no link to each parts lah. but when each piece of the puzzle starts to fall into place, woah, it was like epiphany! it showed the racist part of america and no matter if its true or not, it is terrible to treat a fellow being like so.

went down to have lunch. kumar joined us to collect his ball.

came back and watched 17. touching story. haiz.

then fearless. didnt really pay attention to it. shiyuen thuhan me fell asleep. (:

thuhan left for work whilst the rest of us headed to old school hawker and played pool at queenstown.

i remembered how it used to be a bowling alley and kfc fastfood restaurant.

after eating the fastfood, people will normally NOT wash their hands and play bowling, resulting in disgustingly oily bowling bowls. urgh.

p.s. i support leo!!

(: (: (: (: (:

p.p.s. i think i always support the dark horse.

thuhan's bdae.

2006-03-20T22:50:00.001+08:00

Replies To Tags

claire: hey!! an A is a distinction ok!

sheena: haha. coz i have some friends who claim they are very very desirable and hence, if i post their pictures up, people might actually use them as tools for masturbation. rofl. so i have to upload the pics to photobucket and link them, not like how i usually upload to blogger. anyway, i think its safer (: btw i saw sean ang today at citylink.

bernard: haha. i totally agree lahh! and the trailer is so good! i also want to watch!

huimin: (: (: WELCOME!

argh. my feet are killing me.

i know its weird to hear this particular sentence from a guy but hey, i walked the whole day ok?

these three pics will show you what i did the whole morning:

st. hilda's primary 5. the trail ended at 1145.

i was already damn tired by then but i know that if i go home, i wont go meet thuhan for her bdae celebration liao.

so i waited patiently from 1145 to 4 plus plus plus.

from suntec's starbucks to raffles city's foodcourt to citylink's tcc.

i was really really damn bored.

it's tcc's honey cafe latte!! i think its damn good. i perked up immediately after drinking half of it.

i was so hyper i started to draw. (:

the nice and unique serviette of tcc was like this when it was first handed over to me...

it then became like so...

haha..!! i know i damn bo liao, but that wasnt all of it.

i made the tcc happy meal too!!

the table was kinda jealous.

damn nice right?? HAHAA.

so the late peeps started to arrive.

we went to esplanade because the bdae gurl wanted to. ate at glutton's bay and not soon after, the 3 gurls started to take bo liao pics of themselves.

a good example:

i damn bored lahh and sian. so i started to take...

guess whose are they??

yah. my other two male comrades in distress. the khaki converse is alvin's and sb's the black converse.

before we knew it, the sky had started to darken and by the time we reached the Cavenagh Bridge, the sky had become so.

it was kinda hard to move along the NOT CROWDED road of clarke quay.

because SOME people were taking pictures!!

haha. i admit to the guilty pleasure myself.

here's to share a few!

shengbao simply refused to smile in every photo, making thuhan damn pek cek!!

the day ended with us pigging out on cheesecakes. walked so bloody long for it!

haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THUHAN!

2006-03-19T19:50:00.000+08:00

currently at my aunt's house in sengkang.

the day has gone past quite fast; i met jazreen to pass her some installation cds for her naked computer before coming over.

work tomorrow at st. hilda's primary school. sianzation. ):

woah. just realised thuhan's bdae is like tomorrow and i havent really gotten anything for her yet.

perhaps shall just get her something at singapore river tomorrow before meeting the rest of the crowd.

wonderful wonderful day

2006-03-19T01:30:00.000+08:00

i dont know about all of you but today is definitely one of my wonderful and most memorable day.

i sincerely apologise for scaring all of you with photos that i am gonna post along in this entry because of two very very prominent and scary people.

i had long advise them to just stay home and not go around scaring people.

but too bad, they are kinda like my best friends so you have to bear with me.

the day started awful. i cancelled a job appointment and slept in late. watched abit of zatchbell and rewatched finding nemo. i simply love the movie. was feeling restless and thus, decided to join thuhan and shiyuen at jurong. jady has grown by quite a bit and i remembered how much a particular someone used to dote on him.

anyway, we headed down to thuhan's house and slacked till 9? lotsa cam whoring and watching of television. shiyuen "pamela" is so so fascinated with animal planet. lol.

not gonna bore you all anymore with my boring words. the pictures talk; let them tell you about my day...

that's all, folks! (: (: (: hope all of you had a marvellous day too!

...and i finally understood that if the friendship is close, time and distance will not alter a single wee bit of it.

(.") o O (",)

p.s. aaron (my junior prefect from queensway) got in np mcm! if thats what he wants, then congratulations! if not, just make the best out of it k? looking forward to seeing you in school!

2006-03-18T13:48:00.000+08:00

hahaha. effervescence inc. rocks!

hope we all get 3. sth for our gpa!!

results out on 24th, good luck all~ (:

just because i keep repeating it doesnt make it any truer.

i cant wait!

2006-03-18T01:42:00.000+08:00

saw this trailer on yahoo!'s main site!! i downloaded it and uploaded it onto youtube!

x1 was good, x2 wasnt that good but x3 looks oh so promising!! mwahaha!!

i remember talking to monisha about how jean grey will turn into phoenix in x3 when x2 had just finished while doing gate duty. so that means x2 was shown in sec 3. woah. it had been that long eh?

simply cant wait!!

busy day.

2006-03-17T23:08:00.000+08:00

was late for the briefing as i made a rather stupid decision to take 145. by the term 'late', i meant that i reached there by 5:32, a mere 2 minutes after the stipulated time. see! i am putting in effort to be on time!

it took a freaking 45 minutes just to reach clarke quay on bus 145 and when i hurried there, the coordinator still had not arrived yet and thus, we were reduced to sitting ducks i.e. kim, yijuan, karen, me and the other facilitators.

the coordinator for the day aka ailing arrived at around 6. freaking shit. i was already late in meeting some of my primary school peeps for a gathering with our primary school teacher. i guess she didnt take up too long and the briefing ended slightly before 7. well, i gotta say some of the questions were like duh but there are some pretty challenging ones.

rushed down to plaza singapura to meet the wenbiao and co. and sara (mrs choong's daughter) has grown so much. last i saw her she pretty much was still this meek girl clinging onto her mum. now she is running all around the departmental store! i guess kids do grow up pretty fast; just a blink and woah.

i must say qianling has a definite liking for kids and sara hit off with her well. looks like wenbiao/alvinkoh is lucky to have her. HAHAHA.

chanced upon paul and alvin whilst waiting for the rest to take neoprints. looks like they took up the cathay job. the new cathay certainly looks impressive and i heard that they are catering to a slightly more sophisticated and wealthier audience. i guess a slight increment in the prices is to be expected. nevertheless, i think the place has great potential to be a new hangout for teenagers.

headed down to starbucks and had a little dinner there. everyone was chatting and i noticed a few differences in everyone. they have all grown in their little ways and it is definitely interesting to list them out.

teong lidan aka lesbian teong - she used to be such a submissive and cheenapiang girl but now, so angmohgrified! i think anglo chinese culture is most definitely shape her. her spoken english improved by leaps and bounds! of course, this crazy crazy gurl still scored a freaking A1 for her AO Chinese. Congrats!

wenbiao - another one whose spoken english has changed for the better. all it takes is a year of study in australia! haha. the topics he talk ah, damn chim. all about economics sia. only brandon understand bah. leslie and i were not really catching balls throughout the conversation on the way home. i knew him the longest. 12 years?! no wonder we are BFF.

brandon - english pro since primary school? but i guess i werent really close to him bah. spent first three months in St Andrew's with him. was kinda surprised to see him there today.

leslie - his hair is looonnnnngg lahh. changed alot since primary school. wasnt really in much contach with him but i noticed that he is less vocal now? but perhaps, it could be that awkward feeling after so so long.

qianling - same class with her fer quite awhile alr? i think ard 3 yrs in primary school and the entire 4 years in secondary school?? woah. paul and alvin said she changed alot but i feel ok leh. maybe see her for so long till no matter how much she change i also can recognise bahh. haha. i think this kinda thing somehow subconsciously grows on people? with all the time spent and everything.

nuanpei aka esmine - wasnt really close to her in prisch. can say that i knew she exists but like silch words were exchanged? but she is a friendly person and we hit off quite well. she joining np!! yay!! another newtowner in np!! guess she finally knows what she wants to do le bah. but wasted a year in SA. haiz. but nvm!! jiayou! (:

mrs choong - omg. i dun even know where to start lah. she is my first favourite teacher and my chinese proficiency is all thanks to her for laying the firm foundation! oi! my chinese is not bad de k! A for PSLE hor!! mwahaha! yah. i think she is the best teacher i've ever met bah. i think primary two that year i really owe her alot (with the chicken wing incident and all) lol! :/

and finally... a group pic!!

ntps'o.O (: (: (:

more or less

2006-03-17T15:05:00.000+08:00

im 99.9% done with the layout and content of the blogskin!

yayy!

i just wanna change the effect of my links when my mouse hover over them but thats doable i guess; should not have any major problems and preferably, to add titles to my posts.

my pictures are so clear and nice now; woohoo!

i think i spent the longest time editing the sidebar where all the personal information are.

lost quite a few links so those who wish for me to link them, please leave your url at my tagboard.

having a briefing for the singapore river trail at clarke quay followed by a gathering.

pictures tonight! (: (: (:

along the red-yellow line.

2006-03-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

was late for claire's bdae celebration today.

met them at esteler. i finally ate there lahh. the food reminded me very much of those that i had in bali.

walked around with these few people while the rest went to watch a movie.

coincidentally, elainelim, bernard and his gf went there too.

im so sorry that i forgot rashiqah's name!!

dun you think she has a face that should have a name starting with 's'?

really lor.

ok, so anyway, i went to toa payoh and finally to marina with my mum.

she's such a spendthrift lahhh.

the both of us went to pariss and spent 80+ on dinner.

i managed to took a few shots before the chef stopped me!

good right??

of course this is only one small section of the entire restaurant.

(:

i tell myself everyday that getting over you was the hardest thing i had to do and i dont think i can do it again.

because...

2006-03-15T14:22:00.000+08:00

getting over you was the hardest thing i had to do and i dont think i can do it again. - Courteney Cox "Monica Gellar" (Friends, Season 3 - 13)

just a random question.

2006-03-14T16:10:00.000+08:00

is love posessive?

terrible weather.

2006-03-14T15:59:00.000+08:00

currently listening to: K歌之王 - 陈奕讯

the weather's outside terrible; trust me. this is the proverbial weather that never fails to have grandparents telling their progeny that they will have diarrhoea soon enough and they better drink that horrible horrible cooling tea if they do not wish to spend the bulk of their holidays in the loo trying to flush everything out. ok, things are getting a tad too graphic and i shall just stop at so.

so, moving on. i slept the all of 2 hours just to get my prepared to go down to CMPB to defer ns. great waste of time, i clicked less than 5 times on the computer. and i spent oh so long travelling there. but i cant really complain, its really my fault that i missed my deferment dates. in line with my new and healthy lifestyle, i walked from depot road to queensway shopping centre, with a sprained toe. its hurting like mad and i can practically see the star thingy that is always drawn in anime when the character suffered an injury. :/

went down to bugis to enquire about some job and had lunch there. the fishball noodles are yum, i remembered eating it last with joy, jen, wilfred and zack.

despite the morning's experience, i walked to raffles from bugis to meet yongjin to pass him Sq's money. so i will know that the weather outside epitomises hell. damn shagged now. urgh!

if u ever wonder why kids are surfing porn...

2006-03-14T01:07:00.000+08:00

i typed in pokemon in limewire and this is what i got.

just some pics of the city to share.

2006-03-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

the city by the river. personally, i like this pic alot because it kinda have a four layered feel to it- the bridge, the shophouses, the skyscrapers and the river. i think it really reflects the metropolitan feel and the traditional touch that singapore culture has inculcated so well.

i wanted to try and take this photo from a different angle and the sublevel idea seems kinda good at that point of time. argh. the man there seems outta place. a bit londonish feeling? lol.

the background honestly has no meaning. i just wanted the definition of golden sunset. (:

sprained toe and moody day.

2006-03-13T22:48:00.000+08:00

i was feeling damn sad for god knows why reason.

i just feel so urghh... angsty and everything.

its like im so incomplete; no matter how much i eat, wat song i listen to, wat book i read, it cant seem to quelch the empty bottomless feeling that is eating me inside out.

so i went out to replace my extension wire for my mp3, find a japanese phrase book, return a long overdue library book and to find a present for a friend.

with these aims in mind, i managed to complete:

1 of them.

i managed to return the library book. yes, i know that agenda is perhaps moron proof so it doesnt really count. the only thing that could stop me from returning the library book would be how the bookdrop at library @ orchard are sealed with wax or they could simply vanish into thin air. knowing my temper then, i would probably melt all the wax and jam my book down that throat of the bookdrop.

i went down to sony gallery at paragon only to have them redirect me to sony at wisma. i then came to know that if i have to get back that stupid same model of extension cord, i have to pay an exorbitant amount of $27.50. this is totally ridiculous because a brand new set of earphones only cost $19. i didnt even request for the extension cord to be so horribly done. i seriously think its of bad quality and as an ardent fan of sony's products, i am majorly disappointed.

when i went into kinokuniya to search for a jap phrase book, none really caught my eye as i didnt know which to purchase. i wanted something that could teach me how to write sentences in japanese. unfortunately, most of the books are for everyday phrases. also i realised that it is not very wise for me to get a japanese phrase book because i slept for a night and i woke up with most of the japanese words on my mind (which i painstakingly memorise) gone.

ok. regarding the last agenda, i could not find anything suitable for this friend of mine. i tried and search and search and search but still came up with nothing. i went from town to city to find and still nothing. argh. tomorrow maybe going bugis, to make some enquiries about a telemarketing job which i used to hold so i could look for a present in the meantime.

a reminder. dont make me empty promises. i make good of my promises and i hope to receive the same. at least give me a reason why you could not fulfill your promise. i dun think i am that unreasonable.

i just got off the phone with my bestfriend and i hope that everything goes well for her. (: (:

so moving on to happier things, i bought a book today. its called the sandman - book of dreams. the salesgirl at the counter told me that neil gaiman is a fascinating author and though i had only read the preface, i am seriously enticed by the book. it seems to have originated from an original graphic novel entitled the sandman. According to the back of the book,

There is a dark king who rules our dreams from a place of shadows and fantastic things. He is Morpheus, the lord of dreams. Older than humankind itself, he inhabits - along with Destiny, Death, Destruction, Despair, Desire, and Delirium, his Endless sisters and brothers - the realm of human consciousness. His powers are myth and nightmare - inspirations, pleasures, and punishments manifested beneath the blanketing mist of sleep.

Surrender to him now.

Sounds good eh?

I'm also reading "the treasured one (part II of the dreamers)" by david eddings, a brilliant man. the book one got me enthralled in. For those who are familiar with Eddings, the Belgariad and Mallorean are series not to be missed. You know what I am talking about. *winks*

ok. got to get back to reading now.

till later then.

i still havent slept yet.

2006-03-12T07:55:00.000+08:00

ok. if you are really bored, you can do this really cool thing. i got it off a friend's blog, so yah.

firstly. put your wmp on shuffle mode and ask yourself the following questions. the answers are the title of the songs.

#1: What do you think of me?
Ans: Go The Distance - Mulan OST.
ok, so perhaps everyone expects me to go really really far in life?

#2: Will i have a happy life?
Ans: 枫 - 周杰伦
it could signify that my happiness will be fleeting? somewhat like the lifepsan of a maple leaf.

#3: What do my friends think of me?
Ans: 大舌头 - 吴克群
obviously, they think i have a loose tongue!! argh!!

#4: Do people secretly lust after me?
Ans: Hard To Say I'm Sorry - Chicago
im confused. i dunno whether people lust after me or not? coz could it be "sorry, i lust after you" or "hard to say, i do not lust after you?" lol!

#5: What does [significant other] think of me?
Ans: 最后的战役 - 周杰伦
no link??

#6: What should i do with my life?
Ans: 窗外- 吴宗宪
i know. my life has been thrown out of the window. maybe i shld jump out of the window too.

#7: Why must life be full of pain?
Ans: Lonely - Akon
now i got my answer! life is painful because we experience loneliness.

#8: Will i ever have children?
Ans: 发如雪 - 周杰伦
damn no link?!?!

#9: Will i die happy?
Ans: Big Big Girl - Emilia
no. because "i true true feel that i true true will, miss you much". fuck.

#10: Can you give me some advice?
Ans: 敢不敢 - 罗志祥
oh. i get it. it really depends if i got the guts or not. to try. hmm....

#11: What do you think happiness is?
Ans: 童话 - 洪俊扬
i knew it all along! happiness is just a bullshit run-of-the-mill fantasy used to bluff little kids!

#12: What is my favourite fetish?
Ans: All The Love In The World - The Corrs
Love? Crap.

im done! and im beginning to feel sleepy! (: (: (: (: (:

fuck.

2006-03-12T05:43:00.000+08:00

i cant sleep and i cant get you out of my head.

you know.

2006-03-12T03:28:00.000+08:00

have you ever wondered how fragile life is? lemme show you how:

i was at marina square's bus stop, the one directly opposite the cinema when this accident happened.

nope, no blood was spilt and you can call it a minor mishap

think about it. just 15 minutes ago, this guy was just walking along happily with his gf (i think) and never in his wildest dreams would he have expected an accident to befall him.

when he woke up yesterday, he didnt knw that he would be spending the evening in the hospital.

sad eh? yah. thats how life is. so you never really know when you might die or the ones around you will leave your side?

have you told someone you love them? do it before you do not have a chance to.
have you thanked someone for making a difference in your life?
have you professed your love for someone?
did you live your life the way you would if today is your last day on earth?
think about it.

kinda moody now.

not really in the mood to talk to people. need the silence. kinda.

dont let me catch you or my wrath and hatred will know no boundaries.

i think im a maniac.

2006-03-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

according to elaine's blog, these are the symptoms of hypomania.

Elevated or expansive mood
Inflated self-esteem, grandiose ideas or "talking big"
Decreased need for sleep
Talkativeness
Racing thoughts
Irritably and distraction, increased activity
Agitation, reckless behaviour

shit. i think i have all of the above. how?! (ok, maybe not racing thoughts. im too lazy to even think.)

chain effect

2006-03-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

because my computer is clean. i decided to pack up my whole room to have a clean feel!

i feel so accomplished!

im left with around 3 parts of my room to clear.

minor ones (:

yay!

yayy!

2006-03-09T18:05:00.000+08:00

i reformatted my laptop!

im so happy there are no more breasts popping up in my computer!

and the internet connection speed is so so fast! (:

excursion to changi airport

2006-03-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

so today i went to changi airport to conduct a tour for yishun town primary p4 kids. i left my place before the sun rose. ):

it has been a very very long time since i woke up at 5 am!

so i boarded the train expecting to have a seat! who could have guessed that at 6 plus, the train is already quite filled with people rushing for work? wth.

so when i reach the prestiged changi airport, the journey was so long that i felt that i suffered from jet lag lahh. but the airport was very nice.

even the escalators when u exit the mrt station to terminal 2! so pretty! lol.

in fact, i was so impressed that when i looked up the transparent glass ceiling, i realised the sun has rose up!

welcome to one of asia's busiest airport, also voted one of asia's best airports. Singapore Changi Airport!

sorry for the poor poor lighting. the minute people u see are actually tourists or our own localites! (: (: (:

so anyway, i was the first to reach burger king and i looked ard. omg. i got the sudden urge to fly lah. all the air stewards and air 'stewardesses' (?) around. if i had my passport with me, i would have bought an air ticket and flown to somewhere far far away. woohoo~

saw this particular air stewardess and was reminded of one of SIA's more popular marketing campaign, the Singapore Girl.

yeapp. and finally, my fellow colleagues arrived and work started...

the kids are cute!!

the kids are so so so cute!! apparently i love kids and kim doesnt. she is the wicked witch of the west lahh. she bullies them lah!

after werk, me and my colleagues went to popeyes, a cajun fast food restaurant, which is so good! the chicken is so tender! and the fries are yum!

then they went pic crazy...

(from top left in clockwise direction: karen, janice, kim and lijuan)

scenery nice right? taken near the mrt.

after which, went down to acer to replace my adaptor.

thank goodness it was quite fast.

went home sleep.

gotta go read my 8 days alr! tata people!

first day of work

2006-03-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

it was so tiring but the kids from nan chiau primary school 3G are so so so cute; you could barely stay angry at them!!

i felt that all the innocence of kids rushing at me. (: (: (:

since secondary school

2006-03-07T10:59:00.000+08:00

people liked to talk to me.

no, im not boasting and if you dont believe so, my social circle will tell you that it is true.

perhaps not a first glance, though.

the first impression i normally give people is that i am a dorky and nerdy person.

and the impression still continues whilst having nice things added to it.

so as i was saying, people love to talk to me because i listen.

or sometimes, i pretend to listen. people can hardly tell the difference between really listening and faked listening and it has become second nature to me, so yeah.

but on occasions that i really do listen, i empathise.

in fact i empathise so much, i can practically put myself into the person's shoes and feel exactly the same way he/she does if enough information is given.

and many a times, i provide reasonably sound advice.

funny thing how i could never take my own advice, knowing full well that it is the right thing to do.

empathy? it's gradually becoming a curse to me.

and this is my life.

2006-03-06T23:06:00.000+08:00

you can interpret it into two meanings:

1) my life is an open book.
2) i have no life.

sadly, its the latter.

...

2006-03-06T13:02:00.000+08:00

i will no longer be so aimless.

my aim will be to qualify for university entry and mark my words, i will make it.

look out world. aw cheng wei is back, and better than ever.

i will never give up my self respect, my self worth and my strength. not for anything or anyone in the world.

i present...

2006-03-02T00:44:00.000+08:00

i cant get...

2006-03-01T03:01:00.000+08:00

爱你就等于爱自己 by 王力宏 out of my head.

woahh.

2006-02-28T20:48:00.000+08:00

you wont believe who is on the cover of 8 days for this week??

i think it is so great that i am not even going to resize (:

JENNIFER ANISTON ROCKS

is this what they call a photoblog?

2006-02-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

this is what i did all day (before medisoc exam!)

with...

whom later...

while I...

(fine! i did fell asleep too!)

I hate her alot because she uses...

(yeah. she uses ipod nano. im an ardent fan of sony!)

HAHA. (:

actually i dont and will never hate her because...

(... we have too much history! =D)

p.s. to my many other darlings, dears, blah blah blahs. dun be jealous! mwahaha.

forgive me for my siao-ness today. because i am driven crazy by medisoc which i dun think i will do well. aarrrgggghhhhh. :/

Lastly...

HAPPY BELATED BDAE GOH "BIN BIN" ELAINE!!!

(:

im feeling lousy and i gain my confidence through others worse off than me.

2006-02-27T03:04:00.000+08:00

yes. that is a confession of mine.

i was feeling damn lousy right about just now and i decided to search for "child sponsorship", knowing full well that i will be looking at kids who are much worse off than me.

when i came upon some sites, my heart just gave way. i never knew so many children around the world need help. some of them cannot even be provided a good education. their main concern is the filling of their stomach which is a hard enough task by itself.

and here i am, whining about how pathetic my life is when there are people out there, much much much worse than me. i really should count my blessings.

i beseech those who come upon my blog to go visit these links. round up a few friends and try and sponsor a child. i cannot think of something more meaningful than doing so.

www.compassion.com

sometimes, all you have to do, is just look or ask.

nyp sex scandal

2006-02-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

i cant see what the big fuss about the nyp sex scandal is.

the video was incredibly boring that i had to fastforward it.

the only interesting thing was that i got to see the face of the two having au naturel

heard the girl quit school.

sad.

one fine day.

2006-02-24T14:55:00.000+08:00

im going to write to a book. that will speak of the comencement of the world and how it is going to end. in no uncertain terms of course.

and perhaps, 500 years later. people will worship me!

well. i can hope, cant i?

so there will be quotes like "just shut up and sit down" chengwei 3:16.

(:

no offence k? just a joke.

meeting fel tml.

SHIYUEN. DO YOU WANT TO COME ALONG? (CANT SAY I DIDNT ASK YOU THIS TIME AROUND)

more to life.

2006-02-24T14:10:00.000+08:00

you know how some people always reflect upon other people's actions and think to themselves that there's gotta be more to life?

so what exactly does the term "more to life" entail?

sometimes i feel that we are just jealous of other people's achievements, no matter how superficial they are; and is simply looking for an alternate outlet so that we will not feel so crappy.

i think its damn sad to be in self denial like so, but hey, this is what humans are like.

i've recently watched two movies; both of them great.

one had a happily ever after ending and one didnt.

i quote a scene from the movie:

“说句实话，你觉得我和他配吗？？”
“这么讲配不配呢？喜欢就是配啊！我也曾经问过自己这个问题一百遍。。。”
“结果呢？”
“结果就是：如果这些问题可以阻止你去喜欢一个人，那你一定不够喜欢他。”
“那为什么还是要问？”
“因为。。。你喜欢他啊！”
“不是啊。。。这样。。。很矛盾耶！”
“爱情。。本来就很矛盾啊！！”

this is the one from the sweet ending.

i couldnt find any quotable quotes from the other one but it taught me to follow my heart.

melancholic ):

the three tenses of love are love, love and love.

22o2o6 and the fact that the lesser you know, the more you make.

2006-02-23T14:11:00.000+08:00

ive been busy for the past few days.

busy feeling bored.

was at starbucks with alvin and thuhan yesterday. yes, thuhan. AGAIN. (:

i was learning to do...

alvin was supposed to study maths but he ended up learning the four strings method.

mine all ended up looking freaky weird? is this a sign that i should never do handicraft??

i went home and tried. they ended up looking like:

whereas other people's look like:

wth?

i was having this discussion with alvin and thuhan about gifts.

obviously they are horrendously superficial.

i was saying that it is better to give people whom you treasure friendship bands than those insincere and unpersonalised storebought gifts.

friendship bands are woven using the threads of time and memories ok! unlike those storebought gifts. which can simply be purchased using... money. ew.

you know what they said? they asked me not to treasure them. zzzz.

SUPERFICIAL PEOPLE. :P

lol. was blog-surfing just now and came upon this equation.

any competent student should be able to understand this (even me! i didnt take physics!) :

Fact of life: the less you know the more you make

Formula to prove this:

As any competent physics student knows,

power=work done/time

As you also know,

knowledge is power and time is money,

sub this information into the formula

knowledge=work done/money

therefore,

money=work done/knowledge

and as knowledge approaches zero,

money approachs infintity

therefore, the less you know the more you make [proved]

tadah!!

22o2o6 pic of the day:

me and superficial people (: (1o4 2o4) cheers!

cardcaptor sakura.

2006-02-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

ive finished the entire seires of cardcaptor sakura.

ive lost my purpose in life!!

arrgghhhh~

unmotivated.

2006-02-20T03:25:00.000+08:00

so you caught me. yes, i am bored.

here i am on bed, trying to find a spot which im comfortable in and no matter in which way i turn, i simply could not get to sleep.

this could be very much attibuted to the fact that i slept earlier in the evening.

i found a piece of paper just now that made me reminisce of my past.

there's even a date written on it. 4th MArch 2002.

if i am not wrong, this paper should be written in sec 2 with no doubt that it is in my handwriting. i could barely remember it except for faint shadows flickering against the dark crypts of my mind where it is better left unexplored.

i remembered then that it was one of my worst years in my entire course of life. academically, that is. i had never allowed myself to fall into such disrepair ever since then.

until now. where going poly has made me to be an even bigger sloth than i already am.

perhaps this piece of paper will serve as a reminder of how much my life sucked then and i shall never ever fall from grace again.

19th february 2006.

2006-02-19T22:07:00.000+08:00

im having one of those uncontrollable urges to go talk to you.

but i know that nothing will come out of it.

so perhaps, i shall just try and try to forget.

let the darkness of the night engulf me.

let the silence of my mind amplify the emptiness of my heart.

this is what im crazy about.

2006-02-19T15:21:00.000+08:00

i wonder...

2006-02-19T14:57:00.000+08:00

if i pressed enter... would i really get there?

american club.

2006-02-18T14:35:00.000+08:00

ok so yesterday i went to the american club.

had ban mian at canteen 1. it was good and cheap; only for $2.20.

left for american club and when we reached far east, a torrential downpour began.

it was this wet and andreana could not run coz she was wearing heels.

haha. she ended up being a wet duck with her shrilly voice that could penetrate the air waves into the ears of the deaf.

went in to the club and i was impressed.

everything seemed free! andreana only had to sign for it and the bill will be collected once per month.

so, technically, it is not free.

but anyway, they had great sticky toffee cookies and we spent quite a while lounging in the cafe before heading over to the poolside.

sam was really upset that she didnt know how to break cookies properly and ended up with crumbs all over the table.

she was so so upset she spat out her hot chocolate into her cup. you can see it quite clearly in the picture.

of course we did study.

but it was a matter of time that we had to stop because we simply had too much to talk about.

crapped all the way till 6 until something cropped up with sam.

we left together.

i went to have dinner and decided to finish up my channels chapter so i could study integrated marketing communications today.

i went to haagen dazs and ordered a drink. the bill came to a freaking $11.40 for this:

i can come up with better ones lah. with the recipes from CAN Cafe!

finished up and went home. took 111 from outside esplanade.

yes. and there was this uber freaking bus driver who insisted on checking my stuent ID so much to the extent of halting the entire bus at the traffic light, left his post and went up to the upper deck to tap me on the shoulder, commanded me to go down for my student ID.

do i look like a freaking cheat to you?

hey! i didnt even get carded when i entered the american club! who are you to card me! wth.

and yes, for today, i was supposed to go again to study with andreana but being the pig that she is; she is not going today.

so i am left to study at home, not that i mind it alot.

and hey i got great news! my ccs is dl-ing at a fast rate. so yeah, it means i will get to watch the ending soon. then i will have tsubasa and full metal alchemist.

the only thing to worry will be my disk space. would love to purchase an external one but currently running on low cash.

i was just thinking, how perfect it will be to create a world of my own. then anything will go just as i planned it to be.

i believe i am not the only one thinking of such idiocracy and i definitely will not be the last.

adolf hitler was one. the communist person was the other.

they tried to forge the world according to their beliefs and look where it ended them.

but the idea of it is oh so tempting lah.

oh. and for an advertisement: LOOKING FOR A 24 HOUR BEST FRIEND. JOB DESCRIPTION: LISTEN TO ME CRAP, BULL AND COMPLAIN. LOW PAY AND THANKLESS. INTERESTED PARTIES, PLEASE REPLY.

i think having a bestest best friend is equivalent to owning the whole world. (:

sadly.

2006-02-16T23:07:00.000+08:00

i still have editing tomorrow. after which, im going to american's club to study marketing with andreana. first time there!

mr./ms. perfect versus mr./ms. right

2006-02-16T11:59:00.000+08:00

a thought crept into my mind yesterday whilst i was waiting for bus 61. i still have a little time before meetin andreana so just let me get this out of my system.

alot of people spend their life and time looking for a mr/ms perfect (depends on what sexual orientation you have). forgive me, but im still on the 'awww... so sweet' pairing of touya and yukito.

so as i was saying, people spend most of their time looking for someone who meets with their expectations of the better/worse half. but little do they realise that the right one is there... all along.

lets take a scenario, friend A expects her boyfriend to be tall, handsome, sweet, rich, charismatic and what-have-yous. all this while, she has been complaining about how the whole world of guysare fucking bastards to friend B who is a guy who happens to be her best friend.

so, friend A, after much searching, finally found tall dark handsome guy C. she barely knows him but is yet swept away by his oh so endearing physicalities that met and exceeded her expectations. in other words, he epitomises perfection.

so they moved on and they gradually fell in love. but there seems to be an impenetrable barrier between both of them, no matter what they do or how much time they try to spend breaking this barrier, it seemed to be stronger. the feeling intensified and they began to lose a hold of their relationship and romantic feelings had started to go awry.

i guess by now, anyone could guess what happened next, friend A went back to friend B and complaint again, with a vengeance hard to match. the vicious cycle will continue to go on until friend A finally realise that friend B was the one for her all along. but of course, friend B has the ultimate choice on whether he likes her or not.

yah, so the morale of the story is that sometimes, mr. perfect may not be the one. this is called 有缘无分. therefore, one, when looking for a partner, must consider:

- do we have differing views on major decisions which will impact upon us greatly?
- are we really suited for one another?
- do i feel comfortable?
- is he mr right? or is he mr perfect?
- am i blindly infatuated?

...and of course, lots more.

haha. someone asked me why am i single after so so so long? my reply: i didnt see the need to be attached.

she offered him sex and travel. in other words, she asked him to fuck off. - elainelim's nick. LOL.

16th February 2006.

2006-02-16T10:12:00.000+08:00

i have decided to stop thinking of titles for my blog unless the day really do mean something to me.

i just woke up and remembered to read lynn's blog. (she specifically asked me to last night)

there is a brief anecdote there about a boy named aw cheng wei but it is very obvious that the boy is not me although we do share the same birthday. but i was definitely not called bad liar when i was young. (:

so anyway, this boy supposedly went dinner with his dad and said ridiculous stuff that could only be found in movies [hahaha]. this boy after saying so many 'LAME' stuff, 'COOL MAN' and 'WHATEVER'... asked for a sheep chop which obviously no restaurant would have provided because:

sheep- woolly usually horned ruminant mammal related to the goat
lamb- A young sheep, especially one that is not yet weaned.

so the new question arises: what exactly is the goat? [arghh. the pasture family is making me confused.]

and lynn, a reminder... remember to LOVE weisheng more, not only because he shares the same birthday as me! (:

so back to my plan for the day... i pretty much planned to go to school, study with andreana and finished the fucked up editing [i really really hate locvid] by today. no, not hopefully. i WILL finish it by today because i certainly do not wish for it to come back and haunt me. if i die die have to repeat a module, i definitely would not pick locvid. yucks.

nothing great planned, nothing great anticipated. haha. let's see how the day goes then. tata~

post valentine's day.

2006-02-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

went over to school today to help out with the editing.

to side track a bit, i am very angry with myself!!

i boarded 61, placing my wallet in my hand so i will not forget to tap it on my way out (i decided not to purchase a bus concession this month because i am trying to avoid going out) and guess what! when i alighted at SIM, i FORGOT to tap my card! this is, by no means, a first occurrence so i am rather pissed with myself.

anyway, moving back to my day...

spent the earlier part of the day in sch and guess what?! leanne is leaving for australia tomorrow!! yayy!! haha. no lah. actually gotta wish her bon voyage. glad that at least could see her annoying face for one last time at least.

thuhan came over to np and we walked abit while she filled me in on the latest going ons in her life. had a great chat which lasted all the way till jurong point to look for a wallet. my wallet is spoilt while hers has sentimental value which she does not wish to retain.

shopped. im looking for a small carrier to put all my going out stuff but sadly, did not find any. neither did thuhan, though a couple wallets did caught her eye. we went to practically single shop in jurong point and i realised that it has been quite a while since i did actual shopping. enjoyed myself and was with great company.

bumped into corrine who is working at a shop on the third floor. she did pretty ok for her Os and is currently waiting for the posting results. looks like all my juniors did ok! i am pretty glad for them!

went home on 198 and i remembered to tap my card! rushed back and changed before meeting mark. stayed till as usual, 930? and left for home.

was surfing through friendster just now and i came across wilfred's profile. haha. my cousins and i met him and zack while i was working at can cafe sometime this year. i was hired to replace them and for a while, we were quite ok friends, i guess. i started poly life with them as my 'first' friends? lol. anyway, they are no longer in ngee ann, so yeah.

i guess time is the essence for the cultivation of alot of things and in the course of cultivation, discrepancy in time will cause the aftereffects to be prominent in certain gaps later on.

so anyway. to thuhan:

friends forever!

you know.

2006-02-15T10:32:00.000+08:00

when you finally, finally come around;

it might be too over, too late.

to you.

2006-02-14T23:50:00.000+08:00

i will stop guessing.